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Will never be the women with the perfect hair,
who can wear white and not spill on it.
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Huda Nabila I love coffee and tea loves me. Own a instagram, facebook account and a twitter. Follow if you wish :) ♥Exits
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Thursday, September 20, 2007
maybe because they're simply jerk. i says; This is not desperate but just the deep feelings im into right now. This is also not a confession saying i want you back. No, never. This is just something for you to realise that you might never noticed from the past. Even i know there's a big fat chance for you to read this, because you don't bother at all, but maybe this post might be one of the hottest 'gossip' source to the girls out there that have been crazy or drooling over you. It may sounds a revenge here, but trust me, its not. There's no use for me to explain again because i'm sure, i've stated it quite clear for whats my intention on doing this, at the beginning. Maybe it's pretty difficult for me to get over you, just like what you want me to do. It's easy for you but not for me. It's almost two years living in a singlehood life after going through a relationship with a guy, before you, for eight months plus who don't appreciate me. And i pray to god, and i always believe i could find the better ones sooner or later. So, one fine day, you came along in my life. I swear to god, i'm proud to have you. I swear to god, at that moment of time i thought you're an perfect angel from god. And at that seconds, i thought god have been listening to my devotions every night. I seriously had this feeling you're going to be my long-lasting boyfriend which last forever and worst, I can't wait to introduced you to my family. See, how excited and confident i am to have you forever. i acted like a freak who thinks that YOU are all mine. Damn, you used to be superb extraodinary sweet, when the first time we get along together and till i'm all yours. But, i find it funny and weird for us not acted like a couple. Dont get me wrong but you acted like a stranger as day passed by. And i realised too much things, that a girlfriend woulndt want to go through. It hurt so much and you'll never know and feel how painful it is. I suffered the whole day and night thinking about you. You don't seem to even care at all. Never. People had been telling me to leave you as you're not worth my time. People had been saying the truth colours of yours. People had been giving me dozen of clue and evidence that you're not a boyfriend material but, i sipped those word slowly and i swear it's not as easy as what they think it is. I wished for a countless of dates with many pictures taken of us but i can just dream on and dream on. And then came my special day, my birthday. Yes, thanked god you remembered and thanked you for wishing me but i expect more from you. NO, I DON"T MEAN SEX OR KISSES ALL OVER ME. NO NO. But at least, a meet up will do. I understand you were busy with soccer, well guys, i don't blame for that, but you dont even show some initiative to have a meet up at all. NOT AT ALL. "oh sorry, i couldnt meet you. im busy" That is it. That's the only short and yet sweet sentence, NOT. And that one night, just before our 5th month, you make the atmosphere much worser when you say such things and our conversation that night is still saved in my mind and, in the memory of this computer too. i say; .....but whatever it is, i still love you and you replied; "as if i don't" how short and simple is that and as if you don't mean it. - "I just don't feel like talking to you anymore. You want an honest answer, there you go." - "Oh, okay then. Sorry if things didnt work out for us." - "Just forget the past about us and get over it. Im trying to get over it too." STOP it. STOP it. You don't even have to TRY to get over it because i bet you already forget about us. That are those few sentences that really hurts me and am soooo disappointed in you. I don't expect you to be this way, seriously. And is really hard for me to accept what happened and how you did really treat me. You make me look and sound like a stupid girlfriend. But, thanked god, i've ended all this bullshit. But, i pity those babes who are into your trapped and sweet talk. So, please i hope you change for your own good, anyway. Oh, listen here prettyface, i've never forgive you and i've never forget what you've done. Because, you've dumb me and it hurts, alot. Goodbye.  This long post is kinda influence from my honey bestbutt, Ayunnisa, for against those guys, after what she've gone through right now, make me realised that almost all guys are the same and i wonder why? Jerk. Labels: i dont wish to label anything |
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I know money can't buy me happiness,
but it does bring me a more pleasant form of misery. |
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