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Will never be the women with the perfect hair,
who can wear white and not spill on it.
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Huda Nabila I love coffee and tea loves me. Own a instagram, facebook account and a twitter. Follow if you wish :) ♥Exits
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Monday, June 09, 2008
you're reading a dwarf's post How was it doctor? -Oh very good. But let me check if it went better or worse. But don't worry, you're fine. I just have to check the last time you went here, have to compare and see if there's any difference. Oh okay. -Okay, it doesn't change at all and your height too. So everythings fine accept that you cant grow taller. Errrm, so you mean, i will stay this short, like forever??? -Ya, cos you're 17 already you see. And you had your menses started few years back. You're normal like some other kids. Everyone will stop growing at the age of 17. But.... -ya? It means that when I'm 20, 25 or 30 i will still have this height with me?? -Ya. (And she starts explaining the same thing about the age of 17 and so on) I swear to god, the moment she told me that i cant grow AT ALL, LIKE FOREVER, i was stunned. It's a heartbreaking news for me. I didn't expect that kind of thing cos i thought i can still grow but i just need time. I was definitely wrong. I feel like crying. It feels like my heart is breaking into pieces. Is as if, i got some kind of diseases or sickness. I just couldn't accept the fact that i cant grow anymore. Mind you, I'm 150. Yes that short. I couldn't imagine myself when being in a 20s or 30s with this height. You can laughed at me. Go ahead. You can call me a fucking sensitive girl. Go go! tell the whole world i am going to be this short like forrrrever. I am fuckingly fuck sad. You're not in my shoe. You wont understand. I know being short is not like as if its the end of the world but, fine! i seriously have no idea what I'm supposed to do. I just hope that someone could tell me, whatevershits that the doctor says is all wrong. Cos look, I'm very surprised with it cos, NO ONE ever told me that when you're 17, you'll stop growing. No, not even the nurse in my secondary school who came and check our eyesight and backbone told me that. I've never read anything about it before. Or is it just me, lack of knowledge about this. But still, somehow, i feel so regret over things like this. If i knew it, i would do alot of jumping. If i knew it, i will do skipping too. This is not a joking matter. At this time, i just need encouragement. I need people who could actually tell me that you can still grow if you do lots of jumping even though you're 17. I really wish to grow NOT TOO MUCH, abit and a few more cm will do. Nevertheless, mum told me to appreciate and bersyukur what i have right now. At least I'm not handicapped. i least i can do work with my hands and fingers, I still can walk and talk normally. On the way home, we talked about the advantage being small and look young. She told me not to worry if people thought that imma small kid and i look younger than my age. Its okay. She says that if now people look you like a 14 or 15 year old kid but actually you're 17 then that means, people will thought that you're only 20 when you're actually 30. And when you're 40years old people would think that i am still 30. And she added that, in the future, my children will be glad having a young looking mother even when i reached 50 years old. She told me to eat alot of, ulam-ulam, some sort of vegetables so that i will look awek muda. Mum make my day at least even though at first she nag at me and say that i should have do alot of jumping, situps when i was younger. End up, she makes me feel better and we talked about my future and her past till realised that time pass really fast. And the next thing you know, I'm married. |
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I know money can't buy me happiness,
but it does bring me a more pleasant form of misery. |
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