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Will never be the women with the perfect hair,
who can wear white and not spill on it.
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Huda Nabila I love coffee and tea loves me. Own a instagram, facebook account and a twitter. Follow if you wish :) ♥Exits
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Wednesday, October 17, 2007
HOLIDAYS, planning . 6:20am says; Ah huh. It's so early in the morning i've just got up from bed cause seriously, i couldn't sleep at all even a minute. Im feeling sick and a little weak. I know it's gonna be fever soon. Damn it. So i decide not to waste my time on bed doing nothing and here i am. " I could not have imagined a few years ago being the person i am today. Looking back,i remember how i would look up to people my age. The seniors were so cool. They were the ones who had it all together. I coulndt wait until i was a senior to be just like them. It didnt seem real that i could ever be like that. In my eyes, i saw them as perfect. Everything just fell into place for them. they had bikes, they played the perfect game, and they were graduating. It wasnt one particular graduating; it was every years' seniors. i watched the classes ahead of me take their turn. Each year i came one step closer, never really believingi would ever get there. Now that im somehow a senior, it still does not seem real. It doesnt feel at all as i thought it would. The truth is that the seniors are really no different from the rest of the students. We are still stressing about grades, and realizing that the bikes comes witha price and playing sports is only for the few who are good enough. Mom and dad are still sticking to the curfew idea, and we feel as lost in the world as we did a fews ago. The idea of leaving our cozy home and going to a stranger college doesnt seem as exciting as it used to. It now, seems like a scary dream. It is something i want, yet fear. I am in shock. My body feels numb. I am left wondering when i will reach this dream life. I cant help but question what the seniors ten years ago were like. Did they have it as together as i thought? Were they as perfect as i pictured? or did i admire people who were actually no different from me? I wonder if younger kids look up to us, the seniors, as i used to? Am i going to live my whole life waiting to reach a point, imagining my life will be perfect when i get there, and then have reality kick in? I know one thing for sure: Growing up is scary. I used to think seniors didnt get scared, but the fact is they do. I am more scared now than i have ever been. I am scared i will no longer have someone there to catch now wehen i fall, or tell me it is just the wind. I cant just pretend to be grown up. I will be. " So yeah, it was not me, its by Mindy Bruce, the writer. It's a short story from her, and i think i've been through like that too, so thought of sharing it to you guys(: Titile, Senior Years . Ahhh, so since i wanna spent time blogging things at the moment, i should really use this time to do so. Hmm, it's already, 5th day of raya, still have not done visiting my aunts and friends house for raya. All parents working and some friends still schooling. So i dont take it seriously for this year Hari Raya. I got lots of thing to think of. Manicure done by sunday afternoon, of course after sunday's working(; Find a job at least by the end of this month with good pay, of course. heh. Got to do something with this hair. And i've got no other choice, but to cut it short or to trim them. Strightened them? Oh i dont know, its damaged. And, OHHYEAH . Going out with my malay dance's babes, dudes and Queens (teachers), for an holiday. And for that, i need to do some shopping. Not that much, since we're going Kuala Lumpur and Malacca, 3days 2 nights for some shopping too. Stuffs there must be cheaper huh. Alright, i've got to list it down later, berfore i forgot as i want this holiday to be like FUCKING FUN! Ah, like seriously, FUN. No parents, you see. Oh well, but there's gonna be teachers. But who cares at least parents are not there:D And dont worry my fellow loves one, im going to buy something for you guys alright. Maybe, a Tshirt with print that says, 'cuti-cuti malaysia' with the twin tower or some other prints like the M'sia flag? You like it? OH im loving it. Hahahaha// Okay okay, im being so rude. hahaha. Oh, maybe some other thing lah okay. Just hoped, that you're one of them in my list. Jengjengjeng. JENGJENGJENG?! Ahh, it reminds me of something. Okay, shut tup eh. Those lame friends cant stop with those jengjengjeng, but luckily it had already added. Bagus masuk ajar dorang ni. And i wonder who's the mastermind eh?? hah. You know who you are. xD Okay, cut it off. So yeah, to all my lovely malay dance's babes and dudes a reminder here: Briefing for our holiday- Date: 26 October 2007 (Friday) Time: 6.30pm Venue: AVA room (BGSS) Spread this to rest who are going. Its a must to attend alright. And oh, to seniors, dont forget about our plan, trying to sneak out to one room where we can like have our slumber party there. To those smokers, they planned to smoke too there, ah join them. We gotta get drunk too. Oh, as if(: LOVE YOU. Labels: iloveyoupeople. |
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I know money can't buy me happiness,
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